I have been able to achieve deep meditative state a number of times recently. But it troubles me that instead of feeling peaceful, I feel distressed while being in deep meditative state.
I feel like I am in a void, having no control over where I am going to. At times, I feel like I was falling into an abyss. It’s actually quite difficult to explain it, because it’s something I have never experienced before.
Perhaps, it’s because deep meditation has brought me away, detached from “self”. If that’s the case, then I must have been doing it the right way. Then my fear is understandable because letting go of one attachment to the “self” is the hardest thing to do.
"子貢問曰、有一言、而可以終身行之者乎。子曰、其恕乎、己所 不欲、勿施於人。
"never impose on others what you would not choose for yourself"
Analects XV.24
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how do you describe deep meditation state? and how long do you take to enter that level of awareness and for how long? despite being a buddhist, i have never really committed to doing meditations. so i don’t really know how it’s actually like. i guess that’s why i’ve never really achieved a strong mental awareness
It’s quite hard to describe it – perhaps that’s is why I wasn’t sure whether it was deep meditative state. The closest words I could use to describe it is blanked out. It took me quite some time normally to reach that state, but it normally lasts a while. It’s quite a task, and I think I need more discipline to sustain it.