Burn Out

I have become increasingly disillusioned with whatever I am doing. I tried to seek for the strength that kept me going all these while, but all I found was emptiness. Everything does not seem alright, but perhaps the biggest problem of all is that I cannot put my finger on the exact problem.

I’m burnt out. I have not taken any real break since I could remember, but I cannot afford taking a break now. IHL Moot is just a month away, and I will have to improve myself tremendously to stand at least on par with participants from major universities in Asia. The ATC infamous “intensive revision” period is also less than a month away, and I am struggling  against time to complete my own revision before that. Although Rotaract term is unofficially over in view if the revision, but there are still some things that need to be settled.

I feel tired, of just about everything. I am tired of being nice, and I am tired of being helpful, because at the end of the day, I feel like I am being used without being appreciated.

I am just tired.