Ever felt so overwhelmed that you wish the world would swallow you up at that moment? I am experiencing that feeling now.

Remember the cliche that “money is not everything”? Well, let me add to that, “without money, you can do nothing”. I have been rather, or absolutely stressed out, thanks to the lady on the 6th floor of the college. It has been 6 months since I’ve sent in my application for my study loan, but I have not got the money yet. Nothing has bugged me so much but this money issue I’m having now. In addition, I am moving out next month, and needless to say, I NEED MORE $$$. I’m now living in Nilai, and it costs me a lot to travel everyday.

Seriously, I’m feeling as if I am walking into a dead end now. Exam fee is due next month, a whooping RM4,000. I have no idea where I’m gonna get that amount of cash if the loan doesn’t come in.  

Unfortunately, I am not the only one in this predicament. Many others from my class is facing the same problem. We we all kinda “duped” by the college counselor before registering that we’ll get our study loan within 3 months of application. How naive of us.

I have been out of tuned recently, not myself. I find it hard to concentrate in class. I wish this problem will just go away, but it doesn’t seem so. It looks like the most probable way out for me is to find a job. We were told that our loan will be in by the end of this year. It’s already one week before new year, and I am crossing my fingers. 

It’s Christmas Eve. I hope that everyone will get their Christmas wishes. For me, I hope Santa Claus drop by my house and give me the one gift that I need the most now.

I know, this is a depressing post that doesn’t fit Christmas…But I have to let it out..

Have a Merry Chirstmas…