If you would have just one super-power, what would it be?

I wish I had the power to read minds. I read actions, I sense things, I interprete reactions; a lot of times with success but sometimes with failure. Imagine how great it would be to be able to go into the minds of others. Knowing what others are planning, plotting and finding out what other’s greatest fantasies are. That would be my fantasy.

I deceive people at times. I am unpredictable, hardly readable. Sometimes, people think that they know the real me; am I that genuine? No one in this world knows me, and I led people into deceiving me because I want them to. I am naive, or am I? I can be dumb, or am I really so? Am I deceiveing you by writing this blog? That will be for me to know, and for you to never find out.

The truth is, as you grow older and as you meet more people, you will realise that trust and integrity are two rare species in the world. You will despise yourself at times for playing the dirty political game; but power corrupts and absolute power corrupts absolutely; and it is the attraction of power and popularity that brings the animal out of you. Your destiny lies between two extreme ends; success or failure. There is no in between for you, but what you did not realise is that at the end of the day, you will be the loser. You will lose your friends, trusted people, and most importantly, your soul. You will be surrounded by sychophants or those who are dumb enough to believe in your “divine powers”.

That is why I never liked to be entangled in these games. I have been through that. I have triumphed, but in the end, I feel empty inside. It’s not worth it, it’s not worth the risk. There is more to life than being superficially respected but not liked. If I have the chance of choosing between being Ah Ching the happy fish monger and Victoria the ruthless attorney, I would have to choose the former. Stupid. Naive. But that’s just me.

I do not like the glamourous life. I cannot say I am low profile because I may be the most outgoing person you would ever met. But I like everything to be simple. If I have to choose between black and white, it will be grey. Ordinary Jane I am, seldom will I hover to either the two extremes.

I will not change the way I am. If anyone here thinks that they’ve figured me out, you are wrong. No one, including my closest family and friends know what’s in this brain. There are brickwalls around me, and I built them myself. No one can penetrate them, and no one can look into what I’m thinking. I guess that’s the same for everyone else too.

So, there goes the idea of reading minds.